And then there was Inspiration.

We haven't heard each other in a while, haven't we?

Do you sometimes get this sudden burst of energy to do something? This sudden burst of motivation to that flows through your body and inspires you to take action: To randomly walk through a park, to spontaneously visit a friend, or to start the biggest character development chapter of your life at 2am in the morning?

Doing something for the sake of doing something is freeing and beautiful.

Usually this kicks in when I'm exhausted and don't have the energy to do anything super productive, but not tired enough to call it a day and go to sleep. Out of nowhere, sometimes, a creative spark ignites.

This creative spark motivated me to "start" this blog again. It's a lot of fun to write, to reflect on life and to just create something (hopefully) valuable.

A few months ago, blogging was a lot of fun, but I just didn't have the right intention behind it. I wanted to spread knowledge, BUT I was already thinking this through like an entrepreneur. This blog could grow this big, get this many people to see it, and give me these opportunities. I was focused on some goals instead of the process itself, even tho the process is so much fun. And on top of that, after seeing the rapid development of AI, I felt inferior since someone can create a blog post within a few minutes. I felt like I could never keep up with the pace.

Why would I write a blog if someone can get the information from an AI immediately? I am not as smart as an AI, and I can not write that fast.

And I never will. AI is that fast, and it's just getting faster.

However, this is exactly the trap I fell in to. I focused on writing for the sake of getting a "better" blog post every week. For the results. For the fact that I am a writer. The fact that people saw me as a writer was more important to me than the fact that I was writing. And the fact that AI was an even better writer triggered me.

So I quit. And focused on trying out music.

The same story unfold: I had a lot of fun and loved the process, then I discovered AI was better and I gave up. And a question arose:

Why bother with anything when AI is better any ways?

And this was a punch to the gut.

I wanted to create something that is meaningful and has an impact. I wanted to create something that gives people a reason to dream. And after dreaming for a while and thinking about the "what if" scenarios, I hoped that everyone would say "fuck it" and jump onto the scary, weird and funky path that is following your dream.

What I didn't realize back then is that I was actually writing to myself. I was the one scared to follow his dreams. Twice.

Back then, I started this blog post to help me reflect, to share this reflection and to maybe, and just maybe, inspire some people. However, I somehow drifted into the numbers game. It's somewhat like checking how many people liked your new Instagram Post: You just want to beat the last one.

This took my motivation away. Treating it like a "beat the last blogpost" game did not work for me. Comparing myself to AI did not work for me. I got to invested in it. My mindset was about getting more numbers, not more people to read it. I wrote for attention, not for the value. The Inspiration turned to neediness.

This could have easily been the end of the story. The blog died, no one cared.

However, nothing is ever over.

The beauty about inspiration is that it will sometimes magically reappear. Inspiration leads to motivation. Motivation leads to action. And action leads to reviving a dead blog for the sake of writing.

I fucking love writing. I'm having a blast.

This is a one-shot blog post to inspire you to get inspired. I'm somewhat excited about releasing this, but there will not be many people reading it anyway.

If you are one of the readers and actually read the blog post, welcome back. What a legend.

This is no longer about teaching random values, getting more attention or trying to be a super ultra expert on any topic. This is about my original slogan from back in 2023. This is about Sharing Experiences, Blog Posts and Monday Motivation.

Well, screw the "Monday Motivation" and change it to "Having Fun".

And with that said, we are so back.

Let's have fun!

My Song of the week

RÜFÜS DU SOL is the shit for vibing and chilling.

Thank you for being here and reading this. The world rocks, and you are part of it. And so am I. We are rockstars, baby!

Love you,

Kim